Monday, December 13, 2010
I'm lying down on my bed, thinking of an emotion that I had stirring up
Inside of me yesterday. Try as hard as I may to allayed the feeling.
But I just felt the monstrous feeling of anger, jealousy and queries in my mind.
You guys can't blame me for feeling the monster taking over my entire body and soul.
Its just won't stop raping my guts out. I'm helpless. Its in control.
I'm scared.
Scared of losing her, that's my reason and defense.
He's totally aint up to par with me but the monster manage to weakened my confidence.
It wasn't me yesterday. Its was a monster.
But reality seep in later and the monster released me from his claw.
I don't need to be hear ard the social circle of hers. I don't.
I'm pacifying myself.
One thg I do know for sure I have her. And actually that's all that really matter.
And I'm peaceful now. But will it be for long??
Monster come in many form and it hit at a different season of the year.
I promise to be strong.
No matter how battered up I'll be.
I wanna be a warrior to survive and take care of her for the rest of my life journey.
