Laughter is just a facade

for peace of mind.

2011-10-13T09:11:00.000-07:00

With a fag in my mouth
and finger on the keyboard.
I decided to vent my thoughts out so that i be able to sleep tonight.
Instead of brawling my eyes out to sleep again.

Logical or illogical.
It doesnt matter.
Bcos it have alrd created a lil dent.

All along i thought i've been the pillar of support and guiding you thru.
But somehow or rather im sorry that i was just a pressure cooker instead.
I'll make it better one day if you start to allow me to.

zzzZZzzz...

2011-05-26T08:17:00.000-07:00

Happy state of mind just got disrupted by
a housefly that doesn't seem to buzz off. -_-"

2010-12-13T16:50:00.000-08:00

I'm lying down on my bed, thinking of an emotion that I had stirring up
Inside of me yesterday. Try as hard as I may to allayed the feeling.
But I just felt the monstrous feeling of anger, jealousy and queries in my mind.
You guys can't blame me for feeling the monster taking over my entire body and soul.
Its just won't stop raping my guts out. I'm helpless. Its in control.
I'm scared.
Scared of losing her, that's my reason and defense.
He's totally aint up to par with me but the monster manage to weakened my confidence.
It wasn't me yesterday. Its was a monster.
But reality seep in later and the monster released me from his claw.
I don't need to be hear ard the social circle of hers. I don't.
I'm pacifying myself.
One thg I do know for sure I have her. And actually that's all that really matter.
And I'm peaceful now. But will it be for long??
Monster come in many form and it hit at a different season of the year.
I promise to be strong.
No matter how battered up I'll be.
I wanna be a warrior to survive and take care of her for the rest of my life journey.

Wallface.

2010-12-09T00:10:00.000-08:00

I don't know why someppl do thgs that is just seem ridiculous to me.
Once rejected, try again.
Twice rejected, be brave and ask again.
But if being turn down over and over again.
Please get the idea.
And even if you wanna hold on, be sure to reflect on the situation.
Yes I am piss. Still am.
But thank you I've got you.

2010-02-20T04:42:00.000-08:00

Okay here it goes...
Previous posts all deleted.
=)
All i want to say is that
I've been enjoying life with the presence of someone in my life.
A nurse i am, yes don't ask why i decided to be a nurse.

I hope things will get better, no matter what i will be by your side.